News on Sammy

Dear friends,
Hope all is well with you. We just got the medical results back for Samuel, and it is good or bad. He's had an ear infection, a urniary trac infection, a minor burn (from hot water). Also, he's lost weight since last month, which is not good. Developmentally, he's at a five-month old's level, he is 9 1/2 months. He can't sit up, roll over, reach for things, etc...He's also been exposed to a CMV virus, which is the tricky part. It's tricky because all these things are failry minor things that can be, and are, taken care of. However, the CMV virus in combination with the low muscle tone, and other things can mean that something is seriously wrong, as in mental retardation, deaf, blind, and an early death. It could also mean that nothing is wrong at all, and that all he needs is food and love.
That last conclusion is the one of the clinic in Kathmandu (which seems to be a very good one), and also of an adoption doctor in New York that our agency contacted. However, our pediatrician is still concerned about the possibility that something could be up. She has been excellent and extremely helpful in leveling with us about the possiblities of Samuel's condition.
So, Samuel could be perfectly fine, or he could be very sick. Voices are raised that what he has is very normal for children in third world, Asian orphanages, but we don't want to risk anything, thus we are looking into having more tests done that will give us more information.
Needless to say, this is a very difficult position to be in, especially when you consider the fact that if he is very sick, then what? Can we handle adopting him only to see him waste away? But could we leave him there and chose another child knowing that Samuel was sick?
So, even though everything could be just fine, our hearts are heavy. For me, as a seminarian, this is where theology meets the road. For us, this is where love becomes a potential destroyer. Would you pray with us and for us.
Thanks